I hate sickness, I hate death. I hate that sometimes Jesus calls people home too soon, or maybe it's just too soon for me.
Sometimes I look up at the clouds and I think about all of the people that I have loved and lost that are up there right now, dancing at his feet. I tell Him "Take care of them for me please Jesus, tell them I love them." And then I tell myself that they are probably too busy partying up there to care about a message from me, but it helps sometimes.
I will miss you Holly.... you were loved.
3 comments:
I'm so sorry to hear you lost a good friend, I know that is hard. I hope you are doing okay.
God Bless,
Amy Merson :)
I can only imagine what it is you are feeling, Erin, and I'm sorry that you are in one of those periods of life where it feels that it happens way more than it should. Sometimes, I suppose, it can be overwhelming.
I have been fortunate in that I have not yet had to experience losing anyone close to me. I know it will happen someday, but until then I can be thankful.
Erin -
I have started reading your blog and wanted to post a couple of comments on this and the next entry.
Did you read "90 minutes in heaven"? I sent it to you through John and Maribeth (they haven't told me if they got it to you - I sent it right after Elijah's birth).
I also sent Don Piper's "Heaven is Real". It is the sequel to "90 minutes in heaven". Because of his accident Don has to deal with a lot of physical limitations.
Michael (my husband) has had 11 hand surgeries, as an adult. 8 on the right hand and 3 on the left. We have a small taste of what your family is going through because of that. Of course, we did not have to send our child into the surgery - to me that is harder than watching Mike go in.
But God has been very gracious. Michael's career depends on his manual dexterity. Even though he is right handed and has now lost most of the first finger and the index finger can't grip he is still at the top of his field as an electrical field engineer/relay technician for utilities.
God is molding, shaping and refining your lives to be the very best for His will. That is sometimes very hard. Going through the process is sometimes grueling, wearing and just plain difficult.
But God is honored by our willingness to be used by Him in every circumstance. Don't give up - someday you will look back on Open Gym and all the hard days and think - "see look what God did with our willingness to follow Him."
The every day can be a tough struggle but the long view of how God uses us is amazing, incredible and comforting. I'm sure that some days are just so hard that seeing the end of them is the best part!
For me (on days when the firbromylgia pain is high) I just remind myself that God is keeping me dependent and dependent on God is the very best place to be. That is also true for days when grief from the lost of loved ones is high.
You and your family are in our prayers.
Nola
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