A day in the Life Haiku

Loud screams hurt my ears
And when I think I'll go nuts

Then I see this face

The progress of babies

I just had to document what my boys have been up to lately.....

Laughing at God

It's funny how God can speak to you at such interesting times, in such interesting scenarios.

This morning I was flipping through channels while feeding my son and came across this Regina Spektor music video called "Laughing with". The message was so powerful.
If you haven't heard the song, it is all about How God can be amusing to people; sometimes at a cocktail party or in a joke. But how nobody is laughing at God when they really need Him.

The chorus in particular talks about praying to God like he is a Genie or a magician like Houdini. That made me think; how often do I pray to God for Him to help me out of a situation, or give me something I need? When do I simply sit at His feet and tell Him how much I love Him? Do I really take the time to tell Him exactly how I feel about Him without a hidden agenda, or a "prayer request"?

I found that an embarrasingly low percentage of time do I actually just tell Him how much I love Him. I wondered how much that must hurt Him; how used He must feel. It made me think of the kind of people who only really talk to me when they need something and how it made me feel. And I wondered how in 27 years this thought never occurred to me? Wow God, thank you for what you taught me today.



If you have time, check out this music video, it's really powerful:

The essence of being cool

Not so long ago, the only thing these boys would be holding in their hands on a Saturday night would be a cold beer. ...

Now, babies have invaded our lives. Every get together, every event, is filled with the sounds of squealing, burping, and temper-tantrums.....Oh, and the kids are loud too!

Last night, in the midst of one such event, I sat at a table surrounded by little children; faces covered in ketchup, hands sticky from fruit, hair sticking up in all directions, stains on their shirts and it made me wonder; when did our gatherings become so kid-centered?

As I scanned the room, there wasn't ONE adult who didn't have a kid in-tow. There wasn't a conversation that didn't revolve around dirty diapers, feeding schedules, or parenting tips. And I just thought to myself, "Huh, we used to be cool.... what happened?"

Though, in true form, amidst the sounds of little feet and tiny giggles, there was some cool emo-rock playing in the background. Which just totally cracked me up. Like we were willing to give up our cool factor on every account, except for music. I guess somehow that still made me feel like I was still happening.

Though I am sure in about 7 years time, our kids will all roll their eyes at our "cool" music, letting us know just how officially uncool we are. It's amazing how much 2 years has changed my life. And just how adult I have become. Crazy.

Church Search

We have been church shopping, hopping, and bopping for 2 years now. It's been exhausting. To be honest, I almost gave up hope that we would ever find something that filled our needs.

Ofcourse there were our spiritual needs; the meat and potatoes. But we have found that when you add children to your family, their needs are also important. And it has really been difficult to find that perfect balance. As I have often heard, the perfect church does not exist. And I think that statement is partially true; we're all human, therefore nothing can truly be perfect. But I always held out hope that something close to what we needed to fit would be out there.

I am happy to say that today we found that church. I know it's something great when I hear my husband tapping his feet and harmonizing with the songs, when I hear him laugh at a joke the pastor tells and see him anxiously filling out a visitor's card. You know it's good when you come out of a service and feel full from all of the spiritual food you just ate.

It's also nice when you come to the nursery and see that your son survived and is playing and happy- a difficult thing to accomplish by strangers. It just feels good to have met the Lord today.

My heart is breaking..... actually not anymore.

Ofcourse I would have amazing people in my life who would see my love for COLDPLAY and float me a loan.... ofcourse.

Thank you Pagans! 

My heart is breaking....again.

I've been trying NOT to think about the fact that COLDPLAY will be 2 hours from me next week and I won't see them..... again.

Ofcourse LIVENATION would have to have a 2 for 1 sale on tickets this weekend. Ofcourse the seats would be amazing, for a great price. Ofcourse I would only have $10 in my bank account until Tuesday when the sale is over. Ofcourse.