24

Have you ever felt like a failure in your life? Like you didn't seem to be complete? I feel that way all of the time. Sometimes I wonder if I should have done things differently, or if I have ever really been good enough to do anything meaningful with my life at all. This is not a self-pittying blog, it's just something I've been going through lately. It's just a look into my brain full of self doubt and uncertainty about my future. I was again listening to music driving home from Atlanta the other day and found solice in a song I heard. Though I am not yet 24, the song explained exactly how I felt:

Twenty four oceans
Twenty four skies
Twenty four failures
Twenty four tries

Twenty four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
Twenty four drop outs
At the end of the day
Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty four hours ago


Twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses still twenty four strong

See I'm not copping out not copping out not copping out
When You're raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man now

And You're raising these twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts
But I want to be one today
Centered and true


I want to see miracles, see the world change
Wrestled the angel, for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You